Last Day...

At 3:00 this morning I was wide awake worrying about my students. As a teacher, it is easy to foresee some future struggles of your students. (i.e. insecurities, complacency, attention seeking, even promiscuity) There is a part of me that wants to protect them and set them back on track when they fall off the road. Obviously I can't do that for them. So I pray for them which I have frequently done over the last few months as I've prepared to leave. (If you didn't know, I've resigned from teaching to stay at home with Junior)

Yesterday was that last day for students. I gave them all a little gift and had an ice cream party. They made me promise to email my co-teacher with any life updates and to come back and visit if I had another baby. My co-workers did well at making me cry through cards and flowers. One of my teaching friends made a beautiful tree canvas painting and each of the ESL students put their thumb print on it to look like an apple tree. There was a quote by Maya Angelou on it says,

"At the end of the day people won't remember what you said or did, they will remember how you made them feel.”

         My heart feels conflicted with leaving teaching because I really do love my students. At the same time, I desired to stay at home with River. We struggled initially to secure childcare, which was very tolling on me. While we did find an AWESOME woman to watch River, it was a conflict when he was sick and both parents had mandatory meetings. Between the 30 min drive, cost of childcare, and an emotional mama, we decided it was best for me to stay home. Even so, my heart still mourns the closing of this chapter. To all the student who made my heart full- I will miss you so much more than you know. And to all the amazing staff who became close friends- I will facebook stalk you :)

        If you feel led to pray for my "stay at home mom" adventures, I'd appreciate it! I'm anticipating some road bumps in learning how to stay sane, joyful, adequately socialized, and productive. I realize this will look different, then how my mind currently perceives these things.